Pwlvr's Journals

brent loves jake

i love you jake

im sorry about the night you got shot

and the night i got raped

youll be messed up forever

so will i

were meant to be

but you cut

you cut yourself for things like that

im telling you to stop

before i lose you

and i know youve been getting those letters from tim

me to

dont let those bother you

he wont do what he did ever again

he knows

he knows we are scared of him now

but as long as im with you

we'll be ok

i told you i didnt mean it..that was all a lie ~brent~

day 1: 1:45 am

me: what the hell is your problem?just put the gun down!

tim: im sorry i just cant deal with you any more!

me: well you dont have to fucking kill me!

tim: to get rid of you..yea i have to shoot you,it wont hurt.

me: but you used to love me!

tim: fuck you! you always say that you never mean it!

me: i do mean it! every single fucking time i say it!(i slowly pulled the gun out of my back pocket)

tim: ill never forget how you used me

me: what the fuck!? ive fucking never used you!

tim: oh really?(he put the gun to my neck)

me: really!! i swear! why would i use someone i acctually love!

day 2: 4:56 am

tim-(still holds the gun to my neck)

me-tim! snap back into reality! if you shoot me right now,you will be wanted everywere for killing me!

tim-ill take my chances

me-youve gotta be kidding!(im still holding my gun desperatly)

jake-(comes in the door) WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?!

tim-(aims another gun towards jake)

me-(yells for help) HELP ME!!

tim-i swear to god i will shoot this mother fucker right through you,shut the fuck up!

jake-(slowly pulls out his gun) *in a shaky voice*tell me what the fuck is going on!

tim-i am sick and tired of your little boyfriend using me!(digs the gun deeper in my neck)

me-(lets out a soft yell)

tim-i said dont say anything else!

jake-just put down the gun!!!

tim-not till hes gone!

jake-(aims his gun at tim)

tim-(shoots jakes side and watches him fall to the ground)

jake-(yells for me to help him) brent! help me! i cant feel my side!

tim-ill shoot you again if you dont shut the FUCK UP!(takes me in my room and lays me on my bed and takes his gun away from my neck)

me-what are you doing?!

tim-(takes off his clothes) im doing it like old times (slowly takes off my shirt)

me-(yells for jake)

tim-he cant hear you..hes dead

me-(yells loudly for jake again)

tim-(slowly takes off my shoes my belt and my pants)

me-what the hell are you doing?!

tim-what we used to do (he gets out a video camera and films us,completely naked and soon enough hes having sex with me)

YAAAAAA!

woa i just had some of the BEST sex ever!

ahh i never wanted it to end!

i didnt think sex couldnt get that good.

im doing it later to!!!!

it was with emo is my life, brendon lover, and kelseylovesbob.

hard core!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

with jake AND tim

woooo im having THREESOMES now!

wow i love it!

its with jake and tim

tims the new one

(as ya already know)

holy shit! i thought jake was good..

but if you get TWO in the bed

thats totally different

much better

ya people still think im gay though

and like a few days ago

i was like making out with them on the couch

and this chick nocks on my door and asked if we were ok!!

i guess we were fucking to loud...

ya but as soon as she left..you pretty much know the rest

i love jake!

i love jake!

JAKE JOHNSON!! my love

wooo i love jake soooo much!

i actually think i can spend my whole life with him

we are like so in-love its just awesome

ahh i love when we like start making out then we get all sweaty

and like no one knows about us doing what we do

cause my parents live in colorado for like almost 2 years

and my sis never comes home from her friends house

so its just me and jake

and that answers some peoples questions

so thats when we DO IT!! uhh

*cough*

yeah i really love him

no no you cant have him or try him

cause he only does ME!

not you,

ME!

ok i think you get it now but i know you want more jk!

pleasure between me and jake,if you dont like sex dont read it

oh yeah im not gonna hurt myself any more

no more guns

no more knives

just jake..

hes my FAVORITE weapon

expesially when,

well im not going to get into the sex stuff

thought it feels so good

and also,well i said i wouldnt tell but,its bad

he just,*dare i say it* fucked me in the shower!

told you it was bad,but you cant resist it every single night

you just have to

when jake is in your house

oooh i just cant forget the pleasure!

he entertains me with his long.....you know what!

sorry for the sex-thing

i just had to get it out

if you didnt like it get over it

well im gone to get FUCKED!!

IM TIRED OF THIS!

I AM SICK AND TIRED OF BEING TREATED

LIKE A MOTHERFUCKING SLAVE

AND JAKE BABY,

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND

BABY YOU CANT HOLD ME BACK

IM SHOOTING MYSELF IN THE HEART

AND THATS ALL THERE IS TO IT

YOU WILL NEVER HEAR OF ME AGAIN

ILL BE IN HELL WERE IM ACTUALLY LOVED

IM COUNTING DOWN FROM 100 AGAIN

SO GOODBYE

yes i shot myself,like you care

i shot myself

i aimed for my heart but somehow it ended up in my stomach

jake was there the whole time

he was yelling at me to stop

but i didnt

i was out for about a day

jake was beside me the whole time

i couldnt stop bleeding

but thats just perfect for you

you held me back

next time i try to die it wont be in your hands

it will be in jakes

i know he wont let me die

never

not joking

im not joking this time

i cant belive all these people are saying im a fake

this guns not going anywere

nobody fucking cares about me anyway

thats cause nobody believes me

they belive the fakes and liars

not me

my life is about to end